MY NEW PAGE! (i corrected the link lol)

Please please please ADD me back on my new page! I dont want to lose you girls! I am
going to try and send friend rqsts out to those of you I can find but if i miss
you please add me!

my new page for my new fresh start!

http://turningdreamsin2reality.xanga.com/

I will keep this page up so you girls can find my new page. Plus, I will never shut this page down. It has too much of me on here. But i am going to make it private once I get all my friends added back.

Sad to leave my thin_skinny_dreams page...but now I am going to turn my dreams in to reality!!!

I am ready to start new today. I am not waiting for the new year to start new. Nope I am starting new NOW! Today! Right this minute! No putting off my life any longer. Living life takes work. Making life fun and full takes work. Making my body healthy takes work and sacrifice! I am willing to do what it takes to be a well-rounded person with good interests and goals. And yes...a healthy and sexy body! :)

I am making my new page up. Once it is done I will post my link here for you girls. I hope you move over to my new page!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Mine was a good one. The best one in years. Plus I didnt over eat. Sure I wont lose weight and may even gain a bit due to some of the not so healthy carbs and cals i did eat but at least I did not stuff myself! Woo hoo for little victories!

I am thinking about starting a new page. Maybe take a page from a girl on here and just start off fresh. Maybe it will help get me totally out of this funk and on to losing weight again. If I do I sure hope all you girls will continue to befriend me on my new page. :)

It will be very difficult to create a new one and I think i will always keep this one up but just wont update it any more plus block new people from trying to add themselves to this acct. No point if I am not going to update it. But I have had so many good and bad things happen over the few years I have had this acct that it has become a sort of journal and I cannot close it down and lose all that info. I will keep it so I can come back to it whenever I want...and if I miss it I can just start using it again and drop the new one. LOL Always got to keep my options open.  ;)

If I do create a new page i will give u girls a link so please ADD ME in case I somehow miss adding you to my new page!

I think maybe it is just time to start fresh and start new!

so today wasnt a total success but still better than I have been doing. At about 1000 cals today. But again i had a few not-so-healthy carbs but only a few today and not much so that is a small step in the right direction.

I am not going to weigh right now since i should be starting AF any time starting tomorrow. No point since i know there will be water retention and no need to get myself upset over nothing.

Tomorrow is going to be very busy. Just in case i dont have time to get on here...

Have a happy thanksgiving to those of you in the US! And to everyone....always remember to be thankful for what you have! We should always be thankful for what we have in our lives...little and big!

thank you Jesus for dying on the cross for me and living for me! Thank you God for creating me and giving us your Son! I am so thankful for my family and my friends. For my life and for my health! For EVERYTHING! And very thankful tomorrow is supposed to be up to the low 60's!!!!!! woo hoo a heat way in Nov! LOL

ok here is the deal. I went on a depression bing after my first weigh-in, in which i did so great. Then my best guy friend at work left and I was depressed for days. its not the same with him gone. Then mean AF came to visit and it was the worst visit i have had in years. Everything was over the top...the cravings, the migraine, the cramps (oh the cramps were the worst i have ever had!) I cont my depression binge and turned it into an AF one. Then life got very busy and I went into downward spiral and just ate what ever i wanted. And no exercise. Its been work work work, babysitting my niece (11 mths) and nephews (8 and 5) on any days off i have had. I have had no me time at all and I have just got into a major funk.

I weighed this morning. It made me sick and want to cry.

I am up to...............198.6 lbs! (almost 200 lbs!) The other night before bed I DID see 200.2 lbs!!! (sobs) I have not seen that # in YEARS! I have been maintaining in the mid to low 180's thru low 170's when i am not dieting and losing. But since aug my weight got up to the high 180's to the 190's and it just keeps creeping up.

This stops NOW!!!!!!!!!

this is going to sound very pathetic but if any of you have any encouraging words to leave on my page I would appreciate it. I need all the help and motivation I can get. I know its pathetic but I admit...i need help.  I need you girls to help keep me going strong and keep me motivated.

My cals today ended up around 1200. Maybe a little less. I havent ate much but what I did eat wasnt healthy. I am just guestamating the cals. I really have no idea. It prob isnt that much but with the carbs it might as well be that much. (carbs make me gain faster than cals do)